Posted by: ritagone | January 2, 2013

I Resolve!

         Well, it’s another new year.


         Funny how they come so regularly.


         And so fast nowadays.


         So I’m going to keep this short – again – because I’m hung over from all the New Year’s Eve celebrating from a few nights ago.


         Now that I have your attention, let me categorically state that I am NOT hung over.


         But I am going to try to keep this short.


         In the time-worn tradition of new years happenings, I’m going to make a few resolutions, and then I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that they come true.  Some of them I can do something about; some of them I can do nothing about except to be aware and prayerful.  A little like life all around us on a daily basis: we have control of much, but we have little control over everything else.


         First, I’m determined this year to lose that pesky 30 pounds that keeps alluding me.  I guess that means I’ll have to eat less and exercise more.  I read that somewhere.  I think it’s true.  I guess it also means actually paying more attention to what I eat.  At my age, I just can’t eat what I want and get away with it.  The pounds are just not going to roll off of me like they did…okay, they never did.   That was an illusion, and I have to stop thinking that there was ever a time in my life when I lost weight in any way other than by eating less and exercising more.


         Second, I’m going to pray more and gripe less.  I don’t think I even have to explain that resolution to anyone reading this.


         Third, I’m going to be less afraid.  Of anything and everything I have been afraid of: the unknown, death, illness, loneliness, being an outcast, an outsider, being stupid, being laid up, losing my mental faculties, traveling alone and getting lost in some country where I can’t read or speak the language, flying, computer failure….The list goes on and on.  As I write this, I’m horrified by how very long my list of fears is.  This year, I’d like to trust God more and fear less.  I’d like to be fearless, or at least progressing slowly but surely along that road.


         I guess it’s too much to ask for world peace, but what the heck.  Might as well dream big. 


         Maybe, on a smaller scale, some kind of government system that works.  Is that too much to ask?  Maybe I’ll go back to world peace.  That seems much more tenable.


         I’d love to continue – God willing – to do my part in the scheme of things that is Christian Associates.  Lots of changes are in store for us this year, and I pray that they are all good and positive and move the Kingdom forward in many small and several big ways.  Being involved with the people of CA is one of the greatest joys of my life in terms of ministry, and if they’ll have me, I’ll serve in some capacity as long as I can. 


         I hope and pray that 2013 will be a wonderful and exciting year for my children and their families.  What great joy they bring to my life, and how honored I am to be involved in their lives.  They make me feel like Michael and I did something right along the way, that we didn’t goof it up even when we didn’t really know what we were doing.  God must have been going ahead of us and pointing our stubborn little heads in the right direction regardless of our ineptitude.  Because look at how they turned out!!  It’s a miracle and a marvel to me, and I show them off wherever and whenever I can.


         I pray for the “young married” growth group that Michael and I helped birth over 17 years ago and which is still thriving.  I put “young married” in quotes because, as you can see, 17 years later they aren’t such young marrieds anymore.  But they are to me.  They are like my own children, and I care about them and their welfare – spiritual and emotional and physical – more than words can say.  Sometimes I just like to sit in the living room when we’re all together and look at them, what fine adults they have become.  So my resolution is that I’ll do whatever it takes to keep that growth and that group going.  Even if it means putting up with some of their really awful jokes.


         I pray for my church, my neighborhood, my community, my country, my world.  My resolution is to make them all better because I was a part of them.  And hopefully I won’t forget what I’ve written here, even when the emotion of New Year’s Day resolutions begins to wear a little thin.


         Fingers crossed.




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