Posted by: ritagone | March 18, 2015

Oops! Did I Say That??

 

 

After a delicious Thai dohdinner the other night, relaxed (probably too relaxed after a small Japanese light beer with my meal) and on our way to Haagen Daz for a scoop of ice cream for dessert, Michael, Deb Hirsch and I were just chatting in the car, the way you do with friends when you’re comfortable and full and happy.

We were talking about getting older and how nasty it was sometimes, with aches and pains among the more minor things one has to deal with, and the fact that so many of our friends and peers are actually dealing with health issues that are much worse. We also mentioned people we knew who were having to handle problems and troubles with their children, both younger ones and adult kids. Add all of that to the tense situation in the world, and we all three contributed to the conversation that it would be rather nice if this temporary world would soon come to an end.

And then I said it:

“I’ve done about everything I’ve wanted to do anyway, so it’s okay for Jesus to return.”

There followed what is commonly referred to in literary circles as a “pregnant pause,” and then Michael jumped in, sarcasm dripping from his every word: “Oh, well, God will be very happy to learn that you’re okay for Him to return; that’s just what He’s been waiting for!”

The three of us started laughing with the impact of what I had just said. I was living proof of the World War II saying that “Loose lips sink ships.” Opening my mouth and saying what was on the top of my head, out came a thought with implications too profound and serious to ignore. And yet too funny in its – well – its stupidity.

To think that the God of the universe was just waiting for me to give Him permission to return, because I had finished my “to do” list, or my bucket list, was actually quite funny and yet so profoundly egocentric in its implications that I was stunned by it in retrospect. “Did I say that?” echoing Erkel.

It’s good to be stopped by someone who truly loves us every once in a while so that we can take stock of a comment or attitude that slips by unawares out of our mouths because of our heart. (Jesus said in Matthew 15:18 that “The things that come out of a person’s mouth come from the heart, and these defile them.”) I’m so very grateful that Michael was able to point out that God isn’t dependent on me for His next move. Somehow I had communicated – and believed in my head and heart to some extent – that that was the case.

It was funny.

But it was not.

I’ve gotten over myself now. I don’t think God is waiting for marching orders from me. And that’s a load off my mind!! Now if I can just think before I speak next time, I’ll be a happy camper.

 

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  1. Thank you for sharing this. It echoes my last week thoughts about how what we say defines us. For example, when you are driving and someone is crossing your way when he/she shouldn’t. What words come out of your mouth and what thoughts (sometimes worse than words) are in your head at the moment. Those are usually are not the words and thoughts of love. They pop out when you are not controlling yourself. Thus they are so defining us.

  2. I say it often, Rita, just to let Him know that I am not afraid. I hope he takes it the right way!

  3. I tweeted your blog! Loved it. xo

    • Thanks for doing that, Michelle. I’m just learning how to tweet and such!!!


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