Posted by: ritagone | July 6, 2016

Leavin’ On a Jet Plane…Again!

Later today, Michael and I fly out of LAX straight to London’s Heathrow Airport to begin our long stay in that wonderful city before going over to Budjet-planeapest for the Communitas’ Connect conference.

What am I feeling?

Anxiety.

Stress.

Worry

Excitement.

All the usual emotions one feels (or at least I feel) when getting ready to travel. I’m not a calm traveler. And it’s not helped by two things right now: first, the current climate of fear because of what has happened in several European airports: Istanbul and Brussels, where terrorists have killed many innocent people without warning. (And isn’t that the nature of a terrorist attack – without warning and without mercy, one moment you’re doing whatever it is you’re doing, and the next, you’re gone. Frightening.)

The second thing that is making me even more nervous and concerned is the fact that I have recently had a seizure, my second one in about a year. Both seizures were during my sleep, so I have no recollection of them, no idea that they were even happening until, with the first one, I awoke in an ambulance on the way to the emergency room of the local hospital, and with the second, I awoke to Michael standing next to my side of the bed informing me that I had just had another one.

That is a weird experience, I promise you. A little chunk of your life – minutes, in my case — goes missing and you can’t remember it. Worse, you wonder: is it going to happen again, while you’re out in public? Are you forever living under the possibility of this? Is this the “new normal” for you? And how will this change your life? You can imagine how these thoughts keep whirling around my mind as we prepare to fly out of here in a few hours.

The remedy for both of these concerns?

I am counting very heavily on the promises of all the verses of Scripture that tell us that God has numbered our days and therefore we cannot change that number to make it either longer or shorter. Job 14:5 says that “A person’s days are determined; you (God) have decreed the number of his (or her) months and have set limits he (or she) cannot exceed.” Psalm 31:15 promises us: “”My times are in Your hand…” Psalm 139:16 also talks about this: “Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them.” Even before I was born, God knew the exact number of days I was going to exist. There are more verses in both the Old and New Testament that attest to this truth, and I need to fall back on them with faith and trust. That’s been my meditation for the last few weeks, and when I wrap my fluffy little brain around that reality and truly let it sink in, I’m fine. So I’m breathing deep and thinking deep and praying deep. And whatever God has in store for me, I’m hopefully ready for it.

One more thought: in the beautiful song “The Prayer,” written by Carole Bayer Sager and David Foster, one of my all-time favorites, the most meaningful line to me is this: “Give us faith so we’ll be safe.” Ultimately, it is only our faith in God that keeps us safe from all the harm – both external and internal – that can befall us.

I’ll keep humming The Prayer as I fly away from L.A. and over to London tonight.

Thanks for listening.

 

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Responses

  1. Praying for safe travels for you two! I know you guys will have a fabulous time.

  2. Dear friend, I will be earnest in my prayer for you as you travel.

  3. You’ve just put into words what I, and many, feel when we travel. David B. Quoted that verse a lot– “God has your days numbered.” Worrying doesn’t change anything, but we all still seem to do it. We will certainly pray for you as the Lord brings you to mind. Love you.

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  4. Prayers going up for you today, Michael and Rita. God’s blessings and protection on your visit.

  5. Oh how we love London! Prayers that your time there is restful and restorative and your time with Communitas is productive.

  6. Hi Rita, I was a few days behind on my e-mails and just read yours today (Sat.), and I can understand somewhat bothers you. My fear, as you know I’m sure, is that my memory will leave me entirely. That makes me terrified but so grateful to have Denny at me side. And also I’m grateful to have God there for me to keep me in His care, So we are both need to rest in His arms. I hope you are enjoying your summer. Cathy


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